So after numerous encounters of being in a state of comma in my dreams, and by numerous I’d say at least 15-20 + occurrences / year for 4-5 years now, I took the initiative to do some research on it because I’ve had enough of it. It’s just the freakiest thing to experience and so freaky that, I have to admit, I sometimes even have to sleep in my parents room in the middle of the night because of this weird unexplainable feeling of not waking up because of some energy holding me down. I’ll explain in a bit. Often I think there has to be something fishy in my room, because I constantly dream almost every day, and whenever someone else’s sleeps over in my room, who never or barely dreams, all of a sudden they would dream. It sounds so far fetched but I keep track of this theory and I stand corrected.
Anyways, so what I pretty much googled was: dreams where you can’t (and I was so happy “can’t move and speak” were suggested on the search, so at least I know I’m not crazy and isn’t the only one experiencing this strange state of dreaming. It then lead on to this disorder called “Sleep Paralysis” and Bam! This is it. This is exactly the freaking state that I get in the middle of the night. It’s broad daylight and I’m getting freaked out typing this .. ugh. Anyways, moving on..
So basically what it is is when you wake up in the middle of the night, open your eyes, fully aware that you’re awake, as you can roll your eyes, blink and see your entire bedroom, and hear everything around you, for instance, your radio, and pretty much have a normal view if your surroundings and ceiling from your bed. You know it’s present time, but then when you’re about to get up, all of a sudden you can’t. Like someone’s holding you down. When you try to speak, scream or shout, you can’t. But in your head, you know what you want to say. It’s like you’re in a comma. And it’s the freakiest thing. ;( I’ve experienced this so often that as it’s happening, I know and tell myself that I’m currently in that state, and just count 1 to 20 in my head, and even tell myself, “omg not this again”, because just in a minute of two… I’ll suddenly wake up. It’s like there’s a minute lag where your brain is in function but your body isn’t. It’s hard to explain. I always tell Joe about this, and I remember 2 years ago I’ve always researched this all over youtube and posted it on my facebook to see if any of my friends experience this and lucky enough, some of them do. So I’m not insane. Lol.
I basically encounter this, me waking up in the middle of the night that is, at 3-30 am. Every single time. I don’t know why. I keep track so I know, because this isn’t a one time thing. Last night for instance, when this happened, the music that was playing on the radio was Adele’s “Rumour has it”. (And btw, this is why I keep the radio on all night, because every time I experience my SPD, knowing that that songs are constantly going/playing in the background even when my body is still in that comma-unable to move/get up/someone’s holding me down stage/ at least I know that any minute now I’m about to snap out of this weird, freaky state. So anyways last night, when I first woke up, it was in the first chorus of Adeles song. Took about a minute of two to move, it’s like you’re in super slow motion, your brain is in a current/normal state, but your body is just so damn delayed. Finally snapped out of it but I was still so sleepy ad just didn’t want to get up so I just closed my eyes again. But it happened again! Of course I had to wake up, and go experience the whole SPD.. again! But this time, I got really scared because I thought I saw my dad come to my room to turn off the AC like he would normally do. So thinking it was him, he basically just passed me and the music was still going, my eyes were opened and I pretty much attempted to call him back just right when he was about to leave my room but as much as I was attempting to scream my loudest (because at this time I really wanted to just dip my room) again, I couldn’t scream. :( Really, and honest to goodness, not kidding aside, it’s like words can’t come out of your mouth. But you can hear and even sing a long with the music. But then I knew that I was gonna snap out of it any minute now, but it was just so hella long. Like it was taking forever.
I remember grabbing my phone from my side table, and trying to slide it up and down, but how your body soon wakes up from SPD is very slow paced. You can’t just snap out of it and get up. Coz I remember it was my hands first, though the whole time, and always, my eyes and ears are functioning the moment you wake up, just my body is still as a rock. So at first they were my hands, then the rest of my body finally moved. So let me tell you, waking up from that whole phase and actually being able to move and getting up like a normal human being again, is the best feeling ever! I couldn’t go through all that again I quickly turned off my radio, went to the bathroom, and dipped to my parents room like a child, because honestly, it was so freaky like you’re in a present day nightmare. There’s just always that fear of not waking up you know? Omg. Can’t even explain. I’ll post youtube links to know what I mean. But glad it was over!! *relieved*
ps. This is why I listen to the radio 24/7 and leave it on all night, because I can’t stand waking up in the dark in silence… alone and paralyzed! I wouldn’t be able to tell if I’m dreaming in a dream or just simply experience SPD. Freaky shit. Sleeping Paralysis and Rapid Eye Movement (REM) basically occurs moments before you wake up. You’re lucky if you’ve never experienced this. And on youtube it says that it is experienced by 1 in 5 people.
Dulce Candy’s thoughts:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3X-T2-9Qcdg&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Hky0kj2u1o
